I will follow…

I heard this song as I was driving this morning. I felt a nudge in my spirit. I have felt this burden on my heart for ministry. A ministry that I keep pushing to the side(for 10 years) And though I am currently in ministry, I feel it is a stepping stone to other things. (not only in my spirit but my husbands as well.) But, having sought the Lord(HARD) the last few weeks, I feel this weighing on my soul more and more. A good weight. Though it feels impossible and big to me…I know if God is calling, He will make a way. I just have to be obedient, trust Him and follow.
This song “I will follow” reminds me of Ruth. Though she could have went back to her people, there was something with Naomi. She, Ruth, knew she needed to be apart of it. Her famous words:
Ruth 1:16 “…For where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God my God.
Karla Hawkins writes for Patheos saying, “…she was blessed by making the most important decision of her life-she chose to follow GOD.”
I am following God. It feels into the unknown. Which is very scary. So I can relate to Ruth here. I know that this next step is “life-altering” but I must! It is a “thing I MUST do” feeling.
I know God is going before me. I have had things prophesied over me in this. Just last week at prayer, God spoke to me through someone, and it was very specific. Also, He spoke through a twitter friend that “I will restore what the locust ate”. They did not even know what I was going through, but that day I had prayed to God to speak through someone. I needed to hear badly at that moment what i needed to do or not do with the some decisions I was making.
So now, God is before me. Like never before.
Often times we don’t realize what that truly means to follow Christ. Or to say to God, “… “If your presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here. (Exodus 33:15) To say I will not Go UNLESS you go before us or with me. How easily we go about our business traveling from here to there, taking job opportunities, trips, big decision making things…and do not involve God in our final decision. If He is not with us it will fail.
I think about this as I “feel” led to step into this ministry that is “too big” for me. “How could God call me to this?” But, It has not left my mind since 8th grade. I can’t seem to shake it. Though I know if it is God, He will go before me. Then I think about, “What does it truly mean to “follow Christ”?”
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Jesus said:
Matthew 16:24
“Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25 For whoever would save his life[g] will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
Again, Karla Hawkins writes, “we also need to love the Lord, exercise self-discipline , and “deny” ourselves anything that would separates us from following Him” If you read this passage in Matthew 16, you see a line of events.
First- The officials demands signs. How often we say to God “show us a sign as to what we need to do” (i am guilty) Do we now know Gods word to know what we are all called to do? Will He not open the doors that need to be opened when His timing is right? Yes we are to “Be ready in season and out of season”. Always ready to give an account of what we beleive and why. Truly that is what Gods word says we should do. So we know what “to do” in life. Yet, we, yes even we who are Christians, want a sign. Like fore some reason if we see the sign we will do it. How wrong our thinking is, because, even when signs were given, Israel still did not listen.
Second- the disciples get confused about bread. Jesus is saying we have to KNOW Gods word. Not what people are telling us. But actually know  Gods word for ourselves. If we know Gods word then we will know what to do. We will know what God can do. We will not be confused as to where we should go, how we will eat, where we need to stay..etc.
Third-Peter sees. After we “get it”, revelations about WHO God is, will help us know, He is there for us. He has a plan and we can trust and lean on Him. No more doubts. No more questions. We are in like mind with the Lord, along with other believers. Unity. One goal..one mission.
Fourth-Privy things. God will reveal His truths to us. He will not leave us in the dark. If we seek Him, he will direct our paths. He will Show us His glory and things to come. Not only for our life but even the lives of those around us. But all for His glory.
Fifth- Back to the cross. It all starts by taking up the cross. Deny our selves deny the world and its lustful pleasures. It is seeking God. Counting the cost. Then we will know who we are in Christ, we will know how and when He will use us. We will be walking in the authority that He said we can walk in.
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When we go through these step God seems to always take us to deeper things. Deeper understanding. A closer walk with Him. We go back to Moses in exodus 33:

17 And the Lord said to Moses, “This very thing that you have spoken I will do, for you have found favor in my sight, and I know you by name.” 18 Moses said, “Please show me your glory.” 19 And he said, “I will make all my goodness pass before you and will proclaim before you my name ‘The Lord.’ And I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show mercy on whom I will show mercy. 20 But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for man shall not see me and live.” 21 And the Lord said, “Behold, there is a place by me where you shall stand on the rock, 22 and while my glory passes by I will put you in a cleft of the rock, and I will cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23 Then I will take away my hand, and you shall see my back, but my face shall not be seen.”

This man truly followed the Lord. He found favor in Gods eyes. Few will walk that path. It is a narrow path. I want to go deeper. I know God is calling all of us to a deeper walk with Him. He wants to be intimate with us. Just like Moses He wants to reveal himself to us. He wants to show us that there is more than just going to church. There is a world that is lost and  hungry for the Lord. And God wants to speak through us.
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King Solomon said “its all meaningless” without God. If we truly want to do what God has called us to do we must seek him, deny ourselves, trust and obey…and follow
I will follow,
when you move, I’ll move,
who you love, I’ll love,
who you serve, I’ll serve…
I will follow.
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Change of pace: flames and God on the move

Been blogging about heavy things lately. Partly because of things I have been going through and things people I know are going through. But truthfully, I really can’t stay there anymore. I need relief from the grief of my sins and joy to return.

This is a purely random blog. Pointless and meaningless. R A N D O M. Maybe not entirely..

It is Christ in me that can not keep me upset, down, depressed for too long.  I hope and pray others can feel that soon too.

So for now a change of pace. HOPE.

My old twitter handle was THERE IS HOPE. I wanted those who followed me to see that in Christ Jesus, THERE IS HOPE! Makes sense right? But, things happened and I wanted to start over. Something that would really display what I feel called to do.

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Fan into flames.

what does this mean? Lets look 2 Timothy 1:3-7

Guard the Deposit Entrusted to You

I thank God whom I serve, as did my ancestors, with a clear conscience, as I remember you constantly in my prayers night and day. As I remember your tears, I long to see you, that I may be filled with joy. I am reminded of your sincere faith, a faith that dwelt first in your grandmother Lois and your mother Eunice and now, I am sure, dwells in you as well. For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands, for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

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Paul is writing this letter to Tim. He is encouraging this brother in Christ to keep on keeping on. That this faith, this fire that is inside of you…keep it going. Paul reminds Tim of how he received and that what he received is power. Power from God. (in an nut shell)

So why do I have that as my name. Because I want to remind the believer…

God has started something in you! Lets encourage each other to keep on keeping on. Do not allow the devil to have a foot hold. Because he will try his best to take the christian that is doing something for the kingdom of God …down!

Ever notice that…

Right after a time of fasting..we sometimes fall hard into a sin or doubt? Or we had that awesome time of fellowship in the Lord and worship and then the kids try your patience!

Yep ! me too! Because Satan stops at nothing.He seeks to destroy and devour. And some of you Christians think he is stronger than God! Forgive me but…

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Ok laugh..you can. But seriously.  It is like we forget that we can overcome.We forget who we are in Christ and what Christ did on the cross.

“Why can we over come?” in case you forgot. Here is why we can over come.

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world. John 16:33

If he did…why can’t we!? We can!! Stop living defeated! JUST…STOP!

If the One who spoke the world into existence lives in you, i think you can over come anything.

Que the song i know you are thinking of….ok just kidding. That song does not apply. But you know what I am trying to say. We can overcome!

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Going back to my point of my name. I want to encourage you, TO fan that flame that was started in you. I want to get you thinking. “Is there more?” “What does that mean abundant life?” “Do i remain a pew warmer and not do anything for God?” (ok that last one.. if you have that mentality than you really do not know what Jesus did for you)

Jesus did this amazing thing for you. Yes you! How can you help but stay silent about it??? I mean, if you fully understand..no if you even slightly understand or fathom WHAT Jesus did  on the cross, you know you can not keep that to yourself.

That is what I am all about. to encourage you. fan that flame. set that “little light” of yours ablaze.

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if you can try and read the lyrics. good stuff

Though it is not me it is Him. I am just a humble vessel He is working through. Perhaps it is to step on toes at times. Perhaps it is to encourage and build up. Perhaps…it is to show you..”hey..i have been there”

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We are all in this together. United we stand. Divided we fall, AND REMEMBER, Satan knows if we stay divided we can not do much. But together with Christ the Giant is going to fall.

Lets get excited about God.

HE IS ABOUT TO MOVE.

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God is on the move

Listen to this song. I dare you to not get excited!

IT IS ONLY UP FROM HERE!!!

Forgiven

Recently, I have repented of a sin, that not only damaged me and my walk with God, but damaged others around me. It is difficult to admit, especially when I have acted as if nothing was wrong. I was blinded. But, this blog is not what I did but what comes after.

I feel guilty and remorseful for what I have done.For what I did to those involved. But all those involved have forgiven me. And most importantly, God has forgiven me. Many, struggle with a sin and repent but, still stay in that state of guilt.

So many go through this. I have.

You go to God and repent. You think automatically that you will feel different. Some do. Some do feel that burden lifted. The guilt taken away. Some feel like they have become a new person all of  a sudden.

But, others still hold on to that feeling of shame. “how could God forgive me?” “I have sinned so much!”

Here are some verses that you can feel encouraged by:

1 John 1:9

Hebrews 8:12

Isaiah 43:25

Isaiah 1:18

Matthew 26:28

Isaiah 55:7

READ any of these verses and you will see…God forgives..not matter how much you have sinned. If you have repented you ARE forgiven. Your sins are remembered NO MORE!!

Satan likes to remind us of our past mistakes. He likes us to relive the horror of it all. Why? Because if we are a Christians, that stays down, we are not being effective in the Kingdom of God.

He(Satan) knows, that when we realize God is for us, we are unstoppable!

Did you read that!? With God….

We Are Unstoppable!

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I know I am undeserving of forgiveness. But He(God) still gives and He still loves

Forgiveness. Love.

Love. Forgiveness.

They go hand in hand.

This is something that has taken me time to understand. Until recently. We know true love when someone forgives us. We display true love when we can forgive others.

1 Peter 4:8

Colossians 3:13

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

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Now that you are a person that KNOWS forgiveness, you must forgive yourself and/or others.

Luke 17:3

Ephesians 4:31-32

Matthew 18:21-35

We see how much God has forgiven us. No matter how many sins we have done, or how “great” they seem in our own eyes (sin is sin in Gods eyes) when we repent…God forgives us. Therefore, we know when someone has wronged us, we can forgive them.

We have felt the full effect of forgiveness for ourselves and we know the relief we had. So we can give that to others. It is Gods love in us that does this.

Compassion and mercy was demonstrated on the cross ..

“It is rare indeed for anyone to die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. 8But God proves His love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. ” Romans 5:7-8

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If Christ did that for you and I, so should we do that for others.

Jesus said to me,

“though you have _________, I forgive you”

That’s why I can say to someone:

who curses me out

“i forgive you”

when someone lies about me

“i forgive you”

when you have done me wrong

“i forgive you”

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IN those words of “i forgive you”

are words of “i love you”

 

 

 

A dream

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The above picture looks similar to the skyline I had seen in my dream

January 14, 2010 I had this dream. I wrote it down. And now I share it with you

I was on bridge leading into a big city. I could see the city skyline in the distance. I was not in a car but i was walking. the bridge was empty. Then before me stood a man in black fatigues. He seemed to be just standing there. As I drew closer to the man he smiled at me and pushed a button on a device that was in his hands.

At that moment I knew what happened. And I remember saying  “no” in that slow-motion-dream-like way one does. For some reason I started to run towards him.(As if I could do anything) as I did I turned to see the biggest mushroom cloud rise from the heart of the city. The cloud was a greenish color. (I’m sure that signifies something)

I turned back towards the man and he was now running. Out of no where, military men began chasing him down the highway until they got him. they began to tell everyone to back off. (nothing to see here..kind of thing)

I turned once more to see a mass crowd of people walking from the city. The highway was now filled with all kinds of people. People from all races, ages, gender. Just walking.

In the distance I had seen a woman. She was in a panic. In the chaos of the rushing with the crowd she had dropped her baby. I knew this because there was blood on the bridge below and the infant was no longer in the car seat. As the woman was sobbing and releasing her frustration on the wall of the bridge, I began to pray for her. The crowd kept pushing in around me on the bridge. Several people began to pray around me as well.

After awhile I began to search for a way out of the town…then for a way out of the country.–

then i woke up

Knowing what I know now, about Isis, I think this was the Lord telling me something about the future of our country.

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very similar in color in my dream

 September 20,2016 my recent dream

I’m driving along in Chicago (because I have been there enough now…I know)  and it is night time. I see to my left in the night sky, the Aurora Borealis. Along with a red moon

All along the highway I see multitudes of people. Just sitting along the road. They looked like refugees of some sort. All seemed to be middle eastern looking. I’m trying to get into the city but I can not. So, I decide to turn around. ..then I eventually wake up

 

Now I know, I could be dreaming these things in “fear” of the things that are going on in our world and the recent bombings in New York and New Jersey. But I feel something is coming.

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Dream I had in March 7, 2014:

I was at camp, like a church camp ground of some sorts. I was a sponsor. I had stepped out of my cabin and noticed a bear was roaming around the camp. The bear had tried to get into the cabins and tents. He was of success in one particular tent. I could see him through the tent destroying things and then eventually the tent.

Then out of now where, me(who appeared to  look like vikings) began to pillage the rest of the camp. They did as one would do in pillaging. Trying to take everything. Even my clothes. I felt so exposed(for obvious reasons). All the while, the bear continued to roam around.

(This is where it gets weird. And no, it was not a fantasy dream of mine. Because I do not see him in that light) Chris Hemsworth (Thor) came into the scene along with his men and His brother. They offered to help. He (Thor) asked his brother(Loki) to restore my belongings. But this was done with a price. When we restored my clothes he began to tattoo a name on my arm. (A name I can not remember. But, i know it was bad.) THEN I WOKE UP!

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I know this has something to do with end time things but perhaps I am completely wrong. If any of my readers can interpret I would be appreciative to hear what the Lord is saying to you about these dreams.

 

Like Moses did

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I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory like Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder
I’m not afraid
I’m not afraidShow me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God…
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I’m marked by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I want to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I’m overwhelmed
I’m not afraid
I’m not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God…
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, yeah!

I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in Your presence, it’s where I belong

Oh how we love You, oh how we love You
Oh how we love You, Jesus

By Jesus Culture

This song is playing and I get lost.Feeling His presence like Moses did.  I am reminded of the scene from the movie, Moses. Moses is played by Ben Kingsley. This particular scene is taken from Exodus 19. God asks the Israelite’s to consecrate themselves so they can hear from the Lord.

Do we know why they had to consecrate them selves? because they are sinners. and they were about to hear from the Holy God. Who will not tolerate sin. So they cleansed themselves. (Course today we can boldly come to the throne of God because it is the blood of Jesus who consecrates us.) Israel does this, and as the Lord begins to speak (or the trumpet sounds) it becomes unbearable for the people.

Many do not go to church because they DO feel the Lords presence and they “feel” un-welcomed. Yet, truly it is the Lords presence convicting them of their sin. Instead of repenting and/or giving it to the Lord they choose to just avoid church altogether. Maybe that is how Israel felt as they could not “handle” the Lords voice.

Moses reacts and responds

I love how Ben Kingsley acts out this part. He is enjoying the presence of the Lord, smiling and soaking in Gods presence. He turns to see what Israel is doing, he realizes, it is too much for them. So, HE starts reciting what the Lord is telling him. Then, a handful of people rise. Some of Israel can NOW hear the Lord. It is played out a bit differently then what is said in scripture, but we get the point.

There are those, who God will speak to, who are ready to listen. Meaning, they are not hindering the presence of the Lord. They are seeking God and they are hearing and receiving. Surrendering completely to Him. But we all can have that too.

There are those who struggle to hear God. They doubt. They just can’t seem to focus past their sin. In fact, they struggle because they are not letting God have it all. I have been there. It does take a complete surrender.

This is difficult to do, especially living in the world we live in. Everything is at our finger tips. With God, we have to be patience and wait on His timing. The world says, “satisfy your flesh your desires”….”whatever makes you happy.”

If we would only realize and understand, it is God who can make us happy. A happiness that is filling. That satisfies.

His Presence

Have you felt His presence like you feel the wind? Why don’t we feel His presence like that anymore? In Acts 2, we read The Holy Spirit came like a “rushing wind” and “flames of fire” was upon their heads. These are physical things.

This scene, in the Moses movie, is showing a wind blowing. As we read Exodus 19:16-19 we see words like “sound of trumpet”, “smoke”, and the mountain “quaked.” These were all physical things. Things that would make it difficult for you to deny God. Israel was led by a flame at night and a cloud by day. Not someone holding a torch..it was God leading them.

I mean, they are REALLY encountering the Lord here.

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The wind

I am desiring that kind of encounter with God as well. Ever encounter Him like that?

It feels like your bones could jump out of your skin! Like a rush and extreme peace, complete satisfaction. And all you want is more time with Him.

As a person that sits in the back of the church (sound girl) I notice how people interact with God during worship. It breaks my heart sometimes. Here I am back there not able to really worship (because of my job) and yet, I feel/see the move of the Lord and the people are not responding. I see the worship team getting excited lifting hands in praise and some even jumping up and down. Yet, the congregations (some..not all) are standing like statues.

When this happens I think of this song every time, Life House “Everything”. The verse that says:

“How can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?”

How can we stand in His presence and not be moved in response? What is wrong with us? We are so distracted, we doubt, we are afraid God will ask us to do something out of our comfort zone?

We are allowing Satan to keep us down from living that abundant life that God has for us.

If more people would get into His presence daily…our country, our churches, our relationships would be better.

Friends lets dig in. Lets study His word. Lets worship Him. Lets put ourselves around people who encourage us in the faith. I want to know Him more. Be filled with Him. Linger in His presence. That everything I say and do give Him glory.

“I want to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I’m overwhelmed
I’m not afraid”

All in all

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No one helps you better than family and good friends. God knew we needed each other. 

It seems when we are down family can pick you back up( a good loving family). And your best friend( if you have one) is always there to bring that smile back. i have had a both and I do feel blessed. When you lose one or both, it is devastating. But that is where having Jesus, who will never leave, is comforting.

He brings hope and life to our crazy world.When we feel all is lost..He is there. When we are hurt and feel alone..He is there. When we are confused…He is there. When we are rejoicing and happy..He is there. When we need love, a friend, a father, a brother, …He is there.

Sometimes, we Christians forget that. Remember God said to Moses, “Tell Pharaoh, I AM has sent you”

I AM.

What does that mean to us?

It means HE is everything..literally..everything you need! How amazing! But we can not experience the “Great I AM” If we do not turn to Him. So many times I have experienced the “Great I am” working in my life. Because face it people will fail us. But He never will. Junk happens in life…but He is there to provide, protect, comfort, counsel, love, heal etc.

He is my all in all. Truly.

So today if you do not know Jesus as your ALL. Come to Him. Run to Him!!!

If you do not know how, feel free to get in contact. I pray God can be your all as He is mine!

How do we know Gods calling us to ministry?

This is something I hear all the time. “How do I know if God is calling me to ______?”

Being a teen in the bible belt, where all the bible colleges/universities/institutes/seminaries are, many of my friends would ask that very question. Working with teens I am still asked about it. Many feel called. But, they always question the calling. How do you know?

My story

I have a been a christian since I was young. It wasn’t until a drastic move out of state to fulfill my dads calling, did I really get serious about God. Giving my all. Seeking Him. Saying, “Lord your will not mine” So at summer camp, a place I know many get their “calling”, I sought God in a pre-service prayers. I said, “Lord I have four more years of school. I know there is more and I don’t even know what I am doing with my life. But I know I want it to be with you. Whatever you call me to do whatever your will…I want to do it. What is your purpose for me?” (summer before freshman year.)

That moment God spoke. Sign after sign followed. Opportunities for ministry and “training” times were made available for me. God was, and still is, preparing me for something He spoke to me about that night many years ago. It has been a rough journey but one day I know I will do this thing God has called me to do. I just got a little side tracked for a few years(10). But through it all God opened doors for ministry in my church. Stepping stones to something greater.

You can’t shake it

When it is something God is “calling” you to do…you can not ever seem to shake it. It is always there. Many times God will send confirmation to us as well. Because face it we are a people who need a “sign”.

I always call it a “nagging” of your spirit. It seems to be all you thing about. So, you make plans. Go get your education. I think if God is truly calling He will provide the means for it as well. Or your loans or education will be paid of quickly.

How do I know!?

Nevertheless, you might still wonder “how do I know if it is my flesh or God?”

You will not know until you make the initiative. Or if God audibly talks to you or, like i said earlier, keeps sending signs to you. Meanwhile, we must be faithful for what He is opening to us. These are the years or months of training for something bigger.

Seek opportunities to serve in that similar field. IF it works, you know it is what He is calling you too. Though Satan will try to stop  you …and that’s when you know you are doing it right.

Seek Gods council. Seek godly council as well. I had people say to me things that confirmed in me that God had this calling on my life. (I’m just slow in getting to it. I had to go through stuff first) I’m running hard after Him. That the only way to do it. And you will know.

Conclusion

I hope this helps. It is not well thought out.. but it is what I feel God has been teaching me through my process of questioning whether or not “I am called to greater things”

Also friend…just because you are not a missionary, worship leader, pastor, etc..does not mean you are not called to greater things. God has called us all to great things. A closer walk with Him. To be used by Him to reach our community.

Sunday School teacher, stay at home mom, caregiver, prayer warrior, friend, McDonald worker, CEO of a business..etc. God has called us all to worship Him and live for him and …to share Him with others.

addiction

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Raw and unedited: i have a confession.

i share this not for you to judge me. but to say i struggle too.

i had an addiction. it was something so strong i could not get it out of my system.(i still struggle with it today) i needed everyday. from the moment i rose in the morning to the time i laid my head to rest. i needed it so badly. it was in every part of my life. i fed off of it. i craved it when i did not have it. it made me feel so good. when i took a hold of it it seemed to make everything better. nothing could compare to it. I. LOVED. IT! my addiction….Chocolate covered caramel with salted chunks (ok ok i am kidding i am not really addicted to it. and i didn’t have it everyday. )

but there are things we are addicted too. from tv to social media to a person or drugs. things that make us “feel” better. why do we run to those things? because we have not experienced Jesus!

to have an encounter with the most High God, i know we would never turn back to the things of this world.

this sounds extreme of me does it not!? anyone who knows me, knows I am a pretty held together person. so to admit I had an addiction would probably seem unfathomable. we all have things that we keep hidden as well. Things we would be mortified if someone knew. Secret sins. i’m not here to say i’m perfect. and i’m not here to confess my sins to you the reader. but, i am here to say..YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

we are all struggling with things. i have cried so much this last year about so many things that i should have just taken to God and allowed Him to handle it. but i kept it to myself and to one other. i should have poured it all out before the living God. giving Him all my cares and concerns first. all those times i have cried at night before bed, all those lonely moments, all those frustration, pains and hurts…i should have went directly to God.

see i knew this was what i was suppose to do. i knew the right thing to do and i didn’t do it.

i am here to tell you my friend….TAKE IT TO GOD!!! F I R S T!!!!!

i am having to retrain my self to do that. yes a person who has been in ministry and a christian for  years…i slipped and i have to retrain myself to give it to God first.

see God never stopped talking to me. i heard him. i just kept ignoring. i know what God has called me to do. i know what talents he has given me. and as part of the healing process i share this with you through the talent he has given me.

will i ever get over this thing that i went through? right now it is difficult to see. i’ve cried everyday this week. but…i too must…

GIVE. IT . TO.  GOD.

you are not alone. God loves you. He loves me. but we must give it to God no matter how bad, how sad, how frustrated you may be.

Uh-luring

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Did I catch your attention? GOOD!

It is funny how things work out. How we go through trials and situations and we look back and see how Gods handiwork was in it. How foolish we are to think we can do things on our own. We try to satisfy the flesh only to find out …it is not satisfying. Yet, we know this, especially, as a christian. We know only God satisfies. But oh how we run to those things instead of God. Foolish people that we are! WE must keep our eyes fixed on him. Do we not know that scripture:

New Living Translation
Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8

He is out to get us! The enemy, the devil. He is OUR enemy. Do we not see that? He divides us as a body of believers with gossip, hate, un-forgiveness, bitterness, and pride. In our relationships, no matter what they are, he (Satan) comes in to destroy it all. How blind we are at times, taking the easy route. The “thing” that “feels” good, instead of going to the One who meets all our needs. Who, satisfies every part and leaves us wanting only more of Him (Jesus).

It is truly, all about accountability and discipline. How we American Christians do not like either. Maybe it is the human race in general. But we must, if we are to truly be a light and live right in this world. (Not that we are blaming others for when we fall. But to know that we are in this together too. That if we see a brother stumbling we need to hold them up. That we too need to allow ourselves to be accountable to others so that we do not go down that “slippery slope” of destruction. How easily we can fall (Some of us)

James 5:16Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.

1 Thessalonians 5:11 Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.

Luke 17:3 Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him,

Proverbs 27:17Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.

Hebrews 4:13 And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

Matthew 12:36-37 I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.

Enough to to strike reverent fear in us to do what is right, huh!? Or to repent when we recognize we have sinned.

How alluring sin is too. We HAVE to guard ourselves. Flee from sin. But be able to recognize sin too. Many do now recognize sin because we are a part of a body of believers that do not speak about it. That is were accountability comes in.

We need to place ourselves around the godly who will “help us” on our path of righteousness. Not being around those that are hateful and think highly of themselves- “holier than thou”.  Not being around those that will “tickle our ears”.

But, being around true friends that are more concerned about our soul than hurting our feeling. I would rather have someone hurt my feelings than, not tell me what I was doing was sin. I like what Paul writes here:

“8 For God is my witness, how I yearn for you all with the affection of Christ Jesus. And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, 10 so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, 11 filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.” Philippians 1:8-11

Paul is concerned about the people of Philipi. He prays that their “love may abound” and that “knowledge and discernment” would be among them. That they would be “blameless for the day of Christ” and that they would display that “Fruit of righteousness”. That is how we should be towards one another. Caring that each other is growing in the Lord. Running the race ..forward..not backward. Staying on the narrow path.

This is my prayer for you the reader. Fixing our eyes on the Lord. Not looking to the right or left. But to the Lord. Our guide. So when the enemy comes, and he will, we can stand firm on our faith. Knowing that, only, God satisfies. Only God meets our needs and fulfills us.

This life can throw all it can and I will stay strong, In Jesus Name!

This is my prayer for all.

 

Cubs, I Finally made it!

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Ever since I was a little girl baseball has been a part of my life. My father was always into baseball. He was on the church team. So we would always go to the games to cheer him on. My dad taught me how to hit and catch a ball. I would ask him to throw his hardest. (mistake) so that I could see if I could catch them. I could. Living in Iowa the team that we would cheer on would be the Chicago Cubs.

In our house, anytime the Cubs were on we would watch them. And if Dad fell asleep watching the Cubs, you better not turn the channel. He was “still watching it”, even thought his eyes were closed and he was snoring.

We went to a few Iowa  Cube games as well. Course if you follow the Cubs you know that they pull players from Iowa. It was very neat to see them play in Iowa then do real well and get pulled up to the Majors. It was like a member of your family getting that big promotion and work and you are excited for them. And you could say, “i knew them when”.

Hot Roasted Peanuts were my food of choice when I went to the games.(and yes I am weird I eat them whole as long as the shell is salted) My mom would get tickets from her work and I remember one time I was able to go on the field. It was when the Chi-Cubs were playing the Iowa-Cubs. I was able to take a picture with Mark Grace. Which I will not show because I look silly.

Being an 80’s-90’s kid, I grew up with names like Andre Dawson,Ryne Sandberg, Greg Maddux, Mark Grace, Kerry Woods and Sammy Sosa. My favorite, Mark Grace, would rock those high blue socks! For some crazy reason I have always liked that look. I still today I find it cool. I wanted to get me a pair just for kicks. ( BTW, Dexter Fowler Rocks them too!)

I always wanted to go to a Chicago Cubs game at Wrigley’s. Living so close to Chicago, I thought someday it would be possible. But, we moved out of state and I felt, as a young person, that I would never get the chance. I was, however, able to go to a Royals game in Kansas city and a …(Shhh don’t tell) Cardinals game. (I know, blasphemy! haha)

I went on a bit of a break from baseball. Got busy with life etc, though the Cubs were still my team. I just wasn’t as interested as I was. Then, last year I started watching again. Not because I heard they were doing good, I did not know they were, but just because. And to my surprise…they were smoking hot!! Who knew that the Cubs would finally have a great year and go far!?

So last year, with the buzz of how great they would be this year, i made it my goal to try and go to my first Cubs game. Saturday, September 3rd 2016 I was able for the first time ever watch the Cubs play the San Francisco Giants at Wrigely. They lost that game, but it was still amazing to be able to see them play. And to play a “dynasty” team too. Course if you follow you know that we won the series. Yep! We won the series with the dynasty team! Take that all you “dynasty team” and  “even year” fans. (confession: i like the Giants too)

My take on walking in for the first time at Wrigleys….

Taking the train to Addison street was the best ever! I got to met people who were just as excited as I was. And fellow Iowans as well. Every one was so friendly. Even the Giant fans. The atmosphere was so much fun. Even thought there was a bit of smack talk it was all in good fun. I got a free Cubs cup to commemorate this special moment. As I walked into the stadium my smile went into a cheesy grin. Seeing the famous flying flags over the score board, seeing the Harry Carey face by the announcer booth, seeing the team warming up, the fans all crowding around the dug out to try and get an autograph and picture. There was a buzz in the air. Electric almost. Hearing the the crowd cheer and sing the national anthem, I couldn’t help but tear up a little.

Then, Play Ball! How exciting to see the top pitcher Jake Arrieta pitching on this day. Couldn’t time that any better. Seeing Bryant, Zobrist, Fowler, Russell…all the guys was so exciting. Even if they didn’t do so well this particular day, just getting to see them play felt like a win! Of course singing, “take me out to the ball game” was so much fun! I didn’t get peanuts and cracker jacks. Just regular peanuts. But, I had the best hotdog ever!!

Hopefully, one day I can take my kids. Raising them up right being. Cubbie fans for life.

Till then, Cubs… keep hitting them out of the park! Because …

This year Is next Year!