Leaving a wake…

We do not know too much about the disciples personal life.

We know they followed the Lord for at least three years. They seen his miracles, death, resurrection and ascension. We know some wrote letters to the churches for encouragment, correction, and wisdom. We know some of them died horrible deaths.

However, we are all forever changed by these things. Their legacy and their teachings they left behind.

They were just simple followers of Christ.

So, what are we leaving behind?
What legacy will be remembered about us by those who come after us?

We are but a vapor.
But, I want this vapor to leave a wake…


Not Qualified…

I had someone say to me…
“Women are always referenced in the bible when it comes to bad things…thats why they can’t lead/preach/teach”

True..but who are the ones being led astray by the women? Men. They fall too.

I’m not feminist nor sexist but, I do want to give account that God can use anyone to lead/teach/preach.

Who qualifies a person? GOD or man?

Deborah, Miriam, Mary Magdelene, Phoebe, Tabitha, the 7 daughters who prophesied. All are examples of God using woman in ministry and leadership. Even today we see such great pillars of faith Corrie Ten Boom, Elisabeth Elliot, Amy Carmichael are just a few as well.

In that day, yes, men typically led. But as the Holy Spirit was poured out on the Day of Pentacost, as prophesied in Joel, things changed.

Do I think a woman can be a leader? If no man is willing to step up, sure, women can lead. They are not in sin for leading. No where in scripture does it say that they are in sin if they lead over men.

In fact, Paul on one occasion tells the people(men) to help their sister Phoebe. (Romans 16:1-2)

Why do you suppose? Because the men had the same mind set as today, “I’m not listening to a woman”. Yet, here Paul is saying to help..in other words..do what she says.
To tell a woman she can’t do things for the Lord is telling her God can not use her.
Has their been false teachers that are women? Yes!! But, men too.

My personal opinion: True it is difficult to take the authority of a woman over a man. Women get emotional. Yes. It can make it difficult at times if we(anybody)leads by emotions. But men sometimes lead by emotions too. (Led by pride and stubborness).

If God gives a woman authority in Christ , (as an example Deborah in the book of Judges) then we should be willing to listen.

In a spiritual setting, it seems more accepted for a man to be a head or senior pastor. But here is where it is misquoted, a lot, “a man should be head of his house” (spiritual leaders)

Ephesians 5:22-23

1. that means men should be in right relationship with God to lead.

2. A Woman should love, support, and listen to that leading.

(If both have a right relationship with God this is possible. It takes two to tango. But the flesh..entangles us and causes problems)

This is in reference to the homes..not church settings.

In old testament days, yes, it was men in the temple. But if we read new testament we find out we are all the temple. So, if we think men should be leading all the time, as it were in the temple days, then we think also that means woman are not Light bearers of Christ. No. This is wrong thinking. Again we must go back to Joel 2:28 (Acts 2:17)

We need to stop saying these things to fellow workers in Christ. We need to support each other as co-heirs.

Keep each other accountable in doing so. Should God open a door to have a woman leader then we, in a godly way, judge by her fruits to see if she is an appropriate leader in that setting. But, if you are a woman leader, you must not be so stubborn to not take the instruction when or if, you say something that could have been misinterpreted and ofcourse, this applies for both male leaders or female.

The Scriptures

I believe Gods word is without error.

“All scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness” 2 Timothy 3:16

Scripture only points to Jesus, It is not Jesus. We worship Jesus. Not the book.

Yes, it is inspired by God. “God breathed” but it is not the trinity.

We shouldn’t treat Gods word like it is God. We can go to Jesus directly in prayer with hope of hearing His voice to obey His command.

After all the veil was torn that we could.

“Therefore Brothers since we have confidence to enter the holy place by the blood of Jesus” Hebrews 10:19

Don’t get me wrong..the scriptures bring life & instructions. It aids us on how to live & all about Jesus life. But, some put more importance on the bible rather then seeking God himself.

We should do both. Certainly.

However, some do not have a bible. The early church didnt, those in tribal communities do not, or what about those who can’t afford one? Are they unable to hear from God? No. God spoke to many without the pages of the bible.

All that these individuals have… is Jesus.

I read stories about people only having one page of the Bible. Did God not speak to them because all they had was one page?

This is the very reason God sent His spirit. So to speak to us through His spirit. ( Galatians 4:6, John 16:13)

Now, I am not trying to bash anyones theology. I am just trying to share that if you happen to be lost on a desert island without your bible or you are traveling in car seeking God, or you are asking for direction for your next sermon or bible study or direction in life, God will still be able to speak to you.

Yes, He can/does use His word…but He Can speak to you too.

Deep calls to deep.

And of course it will line up with scripture and who He is.

Quick thoughts 

A few years back my pastor had a situation with some members of the church. There was a couple of board members who were immature in their faith, who started accusing the pastor falsely. They ran his name through the ground. They accused him of many things like misusing funds and brainwashing.

How it works in our fellowship is, if something of this nature happens we can go to the District leaders and they are supposed to investigate. Get the full story and bring it before the council if there us enough incriminating evidence. So, the district leaders investigated and they found that my pastor was clear. He was innocent. They told the church board members to not talk about this situation and to move on. Go on with life don’t worry about it. Was what they told them.

Well, the board members, being immature and prideful continued to threaten the pastor. This situation ran this pastor off out of the church. The pastor felt “why should I continue to preach at this church if my members are against me?”

My point:

This is why I am so leery of calling someone a false teacher. We may not know the full details of everything. I’m not going to just go with the flow with everyone about it. I might pinpoint there inaccuratcy or their misinterpretion of the scriptures. But if everything else seems to be sound who am I to call them a false teacher for one misinterpretation scripture?

Yes they need to be corrected on that. But I’m not going to just write him off as being a heretic. The just need Correction. I know not everyone believes the same. And I know there are certain topics that or preached that is false. We do need to address those and continue to address those. But if their Ministry is leading people to the Lord, if they’re Ministries preaching Christ crucified, Then how are they a false teacher?

The whole point of this blog is because I’ve seen the hurt and damage calling someone a false teacher firsthand. I know many are so quick to point out a preachers flaws. We must be patient with them. Because they’re still learning too. They are imperfect too. But calling someone a false teacher or heretic not only ruins them but it ruins their family. It ruins their credibility all around. That’s why we have to be sure that they are a false prophet or false teacher or a heretic. And how we know this is the completely twist scripture to give credit not to God. They promised good things but but cannot follow through. And it doesn’t ever line up with scripture.

If we see a preacher or teacher teaching things that are not scriptural then we need to correct them. But, Correct them in the appropriate Godly and scriptural way. According to Matthew 18:15-20

Afternoon thoughts

Theology matters. We should be instructing each other in the right ways. But, should one in the faith misinterpret scripture, we are to gently instruct them and correct them. We need to be patient with them. We’re not to beat him over the head or mock them or make fun of them. This is what has happened between arminians and calvinist.

A lot of times people in each of these denominations say this:”you’re not a Christian if you don’t believe this way.” Or that “you’re a heretic or false teacher if you believe that way”. I don’t think that’s what Christ would do.

Yes, he called the Pharisees a “brood of vipers.” But he was righteous and what he was doing pure of sin. We in our arrogance and pride and selfishness tried to correct others thinking that we have the right to do it and to do it in such a way that it belittles the other person. And that is not the way of Christ

I try not to “claim” I’m anything particular as far as who I follow, or what teaching I’m under. Remember Paul addresses this in scripture?

But, a follower of christ. So, if I get it wrong..its on me. Not a person I have followed. Remember men and women fail. They can misinterpret scripture.

I have misinterpreted scripture.

But if I am seeking God, walking in the spirit, and trying my best to live for him, I know that he will guide me in his ways. He will instruct me to do what’s right. Or to say what’s right. And with that wisdom we cannot fail.

But, we have to keep our eyes on Him.

Thoughts on the Sutherland Springs Shooting

A message a friend shared with me. I completely agree with their sentiments. 

Lord forgive the church and help us to be the light to this depraved and lost world. 

“In regards to the #SutherlandSpringsTexas church shooting:
God is not the source of evil, nor does He command evil.
These senseless acts of violence that are happening in our country happen not because God’s inactivity, but the Church’s inactivity.
Simply put: We’re letting it happen.
This world is sick, fallen, depraved, & full of all kinds of evil. And Jesus has commissioned us, His church, to go & preach the Gospel & make disciples.
Evil resides in the hearts & minds of every single man, woman, & child walking the face of this Earth. While it’s highly unlikely that most would do something as tragic as what we seen today at Texas Baptist Church the potential, given the right circumstances & conditions, is still there for anyone of us to carry out a heinous act such as this.
This is precisely why the Gospel needs preached & disciples need to be made! The Gospel is the only vehicle in which the Holy Spirit comes into the life of someone trapped & gives them a heart change.
This world need Jesus, & we’re failing at giving Him to them. 
Someone said, “We need to call this nation to repentance!” I don’t disagree with that, but a call to repentance is only good if the Gospel’s been preached, first!
Sadly, the church fails at that. 😔
If repentance starts anywhere then it needs to start with the church. We’re failing Jesus by NOT preaching the Gospel & by NOT making disciples. We have also failed the world NOT preaching the Gospel & by NOT making disciples!
Some may disagree with that. So, let me explain in a scenario…
There’s been a hurricane. You’re given a boat & you’re commissioned to rescue people from their houses as flood waters rise. Instead of going out to rescue people you instead decide to keep your boat hidden inside your garage far from the flood area. People are out there helpless, scared, & in danger of dying. They may not know that you we’re supposed to come, but when nobody comes & death over takes them it is easy to see that someone failed to bring them a boat. Someone failed to deliver to them the vehicle that could have saved them. Someone let them down.
We’re not taking the vehicle out of the garage. We’re not preaching the Gospel where it needs to be preached.
We keep it hidden in our garages (churches) & then we tell those who are in danger of perishing, “Hey guys! If you want saved come to our garage! We have a boat there!”
Then one day we see tragedy unfold.
A man runs a car into a crowd of people….
A shooter slaughters indiscriminately at a concert…
A lone gunman comes into a house of worship….
Some cry out, “How could God let something like this happen?”
Others scream, “Do away with guns!”
Others are talking about beefing up security in their house of worship.
But nobody is doing what needs to be done to help solve the problem: Preach the Gospel & make disciples!
People need the boat & instead of taking the boat to them our solution is to hide the boat in the garage, surround the garage with guns, & then tell those who are perishing to come to the garage to be rescued.
It’s not God’s fault.
It’s not gun’s fault. Anything can be a deadly weapon in the hands of someone who has murder on their heart.
Cain killed Able with a rock. Muslim terrorist killed almost 3,000 people on 9/11 with airplanes. Timothy McVey murdered 168 people with a truckload of poop!
The problem isn’t the weapons, themselves. It’s the evil in the hearts of people that’s the problem.
And God has tasked us with addressing it directly by delivering the only vehicle that can possibly pierce a hardened, evil, sin-filled heart: The Gospel of Jesus Christ.
No, Church. This isn’t God’s fault. It isn’t gun’s fault. It’s not Islam’s fault. It’s our fault for not doing what we’re supposed to do.
And this is the duty & responsibility of EVERYONE who is in Christ Jesus, not just the paid professionals!
It’s time for us to examine ourselves. It’s time for us to examine our walk with Christ. It’s time for us, the Church, to fall down on our faces, humble ourselves before God, and beg for His mercy & forgiveness. 
We need to lead the world in repentance by repenting, first!”

How do I make lemonade?

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HA! Easier said then done. We have experienced the “lemons” of life in one way, shape, or form. We question God, we question our existence…We ask “WHY?”

Life. Is. Hard.

And then we are told to make “lemonade” Really!?

How!? That means I need water and sugar.  How am I suppose to get that!?

Lets break it down..

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Water is a life giving source. It hydrates and grows things. It refreshes or restores. Who is our “life giving source”? Is it a person? Is it music? Is it a drug or alcohol?  Is it GOD?

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Now sugar makes things sweet. Just a “spoon full of sugar helps the medicine go down” so says Mary Poppins in Walt Disneys, Mary Poppins. So, what can make your life sweeter? Is it a person? Music? Things? Drugs and alcohol? Fame? Money? God?


Let’s get real…

We all have had ups and downs. For me having a child who is handicap is a struggle in its self, but that on top of everything else……..life can be a tough one.

A pipe breaks, financial struggles from bills to… “how will I buy food?”, kids are not behaving in a school, relationship problems from marriage to family to friends, health issues, a death in the family, tickets, doctor visits and appointments, physical therapy, getting into an accident, having to pay two mortgages, selling a house, having problems with insurance, having problems at work, people starting rumors about you, people angry with you and you have no idea what about, laundry staying caught up, dishes always being cleaned, making sure you have enough to eat for the family…honestly….i have so much more I could share. And I am sure you all can relate with some of this?

Not only do I worry about the stuff in my life, but I get concerned and worry about those dearest to me. So that is added stress and worry (I know I put on myself) but, it’s because I hate to see those closest to me hurt or suffering.

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So how bout those lemons? Yeah…how do I find water and sugar to make lemonade?

I, thankfully, know the Lord. The LORD who is the Great I AM. He IS my ALL in ALL. I can not live this life on my own. I can not do it without GOD. When I try on my own it is a bitter life. It’s tough. I want to give in and give up. I NEED GOD!!

So, I see these struggles and trails and heartaches and I bring it before the Lord. Is it easy to do? NO!! Do I still get down? YES!! Do I spend nights crying before I officially give it to the Lord? YES!! Am I perfect? No! But the holy spirit talks to me. He tells me through a friend, a song, his word, a dream…that I need to cast all my cares and worries to Him.

Am I told more than once to do this? Yes! Because with each new trial and situation I forget. I want to soak in my lemon juice. I forget that God brings life giving waters and his word brings sweet refreshing to my soul. I forget that I can find hope and peace when I come to him.(Romans 8:6)

Sometimes I linger longer in the juice and forget to add water and sugar for a few days. (Lord forgive me) But, once I remember I am restored. I find joy again. I see clearly or clearer. I am reminded GOD is for me. I am reminded that, “for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose” Romans 8:28

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How do I make lemonade?

Lemon squeezing

Sure we get the lemons but, it can not become lemon juice until we crush it, squeeze every drop from the fruit.That is what turns lemons into lemonade. So, our trials or heartaches come but, once we bring it before the Lord, he takes our lemons and empties us. He brings out what we thought were awful and bitter circumstances, into a beautiful refreshing flavor. Not only does this benefits our lives but those around us. That how God works. We can,t make the lemonade but God can. He brings the refreshing waters and the sweet to our lives and take our bitter situations and makes it into something amazing!

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!” Psalm 34:8

Why do you love me?

I asked my kids today, “Why do you love me?”

In my pride, I expected them to list of all the things I do for them. 

Their response, ” Because you are our Mom. And you care for us”

Nothing fancy. Nothing complicated. But, just a simple answer. “Becuase You are our Mom”

Growing up, my dad always emphasised family. He’d say, ” people come and go but your family will always stay with you” Why? Because family will always love you. No matter what you DO they will love YOU. 

So, as I pondered a moment on what my kids said (literaly a moment because I felt the Holy Spirit speak to me as to what this meant spiritually) I began to think, “Why do we (I) love God?”

We get taught that God showers blessings on us. That He loves us. That He wants to prosperous. And sure having that thought in our minds we can think “well, of course that’s why I love God. Because look at all that He’s done for me.”

But, am I worshiping Him and loving Him because of those extra blessings? Or am I worshipping Him because of who He is? 

He is God. He is the almighty. He’s The Great I Am. He never fails. He is Creator He is Lord, He is majesty and Splendor and Glory. And not to mention Healer and Provider or Redeemer and Friend. 

He is my Savior. 

I think we can get confused on why we love Him. But, if we remember that He is “The Great I Am”,  how blessed we are beyond measure to have a God that lives, Reigns, and loves us…that should make anyone want to love Him for WHO he is.

I say this to those who are redeemed. Those who are walking and growing in the Lord. Everyday we must wake up to love Him for WHO He is and not just because of WHAT He has done or MIGHT do for us. 

But love Him as our great I Am. 

Trusting God 

“In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:6

When we are walking in the dark,through the woods, we can’t see where we are walking. We can’t see the obstacles in our path. We stumble and trip because there’s no light. Once we have a flashlight then we can see our path.

We think about this with our walk with the Lord. God’s word is a light unto our path. Guiding us. Bringing light to the obstacles that would make us stumble and trip spiritually.

But, I’m going to take this a little bit further. If our eyes are focused on God, only He makes the paths straight and level. So, if we are trusting completely in Him, then we are not going to trip or stumble or fall. No obstacle will be in our way that He cannot handle or remove.

Nothing in our way will make us stumble or fall because our focus is on God and not the things of this world. When we look up to Him, it is complete trust and surrender to the Almighty. He prepares our way. 

So, why wou”d we not trust Him to guide us?

Yet, we often take our eyes off of Him. We look to our own problems and see them as impossible to conquer.

I’m reminded of the story of David and Goliath. David saw Goliath and he didn’t call him a giant. He called him as what he was, just a mere man, an “uncircumcised philistine.” 

David knew that God was with him. David knew that, with God by his side, he could overcome anything. What everyone else was seeing as this giant..or mountain of a man, David was seeing as…nothing. Because of who he knew of God. David knew that God was greater!

So I encourage you, that obstacle in your way, that thing that you think is a “giant” or a “mountain”, is nothing compared to the Almighty Living Powerful God that you serve.

So, fix your eyes on him. Turn your gaze back to the Lord. Don’t look at that obstacle as something you can’t handle. Look at it as, my God is able! Focusing on God, Trusting God completely in all your circumstances. 

Love like Jesus 

Love one another. John 13:34
Getting real…
For me, it’s difficult to lavish my love on others. Especially, when they don’t return love or initiate it. It truly is a sacrafice to love people at times. For me anyways.

I know I should love like Christ, but my imperfections(stubborness) make it difficult. Especially, when I feel like I try and try and nothing is returned. Nevertheless, I still try.

 But I find it easier to lavish my love on God. Because His love never fails. It is a revolving door. Unending. Unfailing. Even when I don’t “feel” like giving worship or love unto the Lord, I seem to be able to deny my flesh, easier, to honor and praise the lover of my soul.

We are told to love others, to love our neighbors, to pray for our enemies even. Im being blunt here, but loving those who don’t love you…thats difficult. Yet, we are reminded that Christ loved us even when we were far off…even when we were sinners. (Romans 5:8)

Side note: those who may be reading this my ask, “oh so she really doesn’t love me all those times she acted as if she did she really didn’t?” It’s not that I don’t love people. I do! But I’ve been in some situations where it was a lot harder to love someone because of their actions towards me. I know I’m not alone in this. Does it make it right? No! But the more I grow in the Lord the more I can love the way he loves. And if you’re feeling now that I never loved you in the past. Please don’t think that. I do. I’m just talking in general about situations that we may struggle with with some people. As well as, situations that I have had with some people.

I know I’m not perfect like Christ, but I strive to demonstrate Him to others. (John 13:35) becuase if we don’t how will they know Gods love? I know the more I follow Christ, the more I seek Him, the less of my flesh will rise up. I will love how He loves. My heart will break how His heart breaks over those who are lost. Those who need a Savior.

So my challenge, is to love even when love is not returned. It is crucifying the flesh with all its emotions. Denying all selfishness of, “but, what about my feelings?” And loving like Christ loved us.